Thor/Loki: The Thunderer's Children by bluetoast, mature, words: 3,919, AU: Jotun Loki, warning: mpreg
Loki has been a prisoner on Asgard for sixteen years. They currently have five children: two boys, three girls - and Loki’s sixth pregnancy has put him on bed-rest. One night, none of the kids can sleep.
I actually drew this last month and didn’t post it because reasons, but taking a look at it again, I suppose it looks decent? Consider this scrap a filler because my drive to draw hipster au has been completely depleted and I gotta recharge le sigh.
check that apple for lipstick marks this boy is p r e t t y
Thor: The Dark World (liveblog) [x]
As you watch this scene and keep an eye on Loki’s face—especially at the end, where it’s really noticable—you can see that dark mottling on his face growing stronger. There’s not much of an idea of where it could come from, it’s not like Kurse drained the life out of him like he did with the Einherjar, because it’s not until well after Kurse is dead and thus not touching Loki anymore that he starts to turn all mottled. And Frigga never went through this, when Kurse stabbed her.
It’s obviously very deliberate, this is not just a gray pallor that Loki gets when he’s losing blood, this is something burning up or changing in him and I really do think that it’s what I talked about in this post (with follow up discussion here), that Loki was stabbed with the same weapon that Kurse had been stabbed with, that just enough of Kurse’s blood got into Loki’s system and it tried to change him into a Kursed One (but wasn’t enough to do it properly), which is a process that burns them up from the inside out and makes them stronger, so it kept Loki alive just long enough for his own healing to kick in, which was after he’d “died”.
I rather fully expect to never get this answered in canon or for the answer to just be, “*wiggles fingers* magic!”, but with what we have in the canon so far… this is my best theory.
SOMETHING happened to Loki in that moment, because that wasn’t just a regular part of death, nobody else has had that, not even when Frigga was killed by Kurse. I don’t know if it was part of the original script or added in editing later on, when they had to have Loki revived or what, but I’ll never say that it doesn’t at least mean SOMETHING, given that it’s spreading while they’re talking and it’s something that only Loki has, that we’ve seen.
Thor: The Dark World (liveblog) [x]
So, I hate everything that has ever existed now, pretty much. Thanks, movie. Fuck feelings, what have they ever done for me! Only bad things!
DEEP BREATHS. I’m not sure how to even begin talking about this because it’s a lot like the end of the first movie, where I’m getting all worked up and emotional at Tom’s performance, it’s very touching, but it’s not waterworks for all that I think he’s brilliant at it. It’s not until Chris’ face, every time, that I start tearing up, because he is so incredibly solid and good in this role that he can make me cry over this character.
Every little touch in this scene is perfection. From the way Thor puts a hand on the back of Loki’s neck to support him and draw him closer to the way Thor comforts Loki, tells him that it’s all right, says in that heartbrokenly fond voice that, oh, Loki, you didn’t listen. And it makes me think, how many times must Thor have told Loki to be careful? Because Loki would always be trying to prove himself, to be more like Thor, despite that it wasn’t his strength? How many times would Loki get in over his head, get wounded in a way that was dangerous, because he didn’t listen to Thor telling him that it was dangerous and he should look out for himself better? How many times did Thor go into protective big brother mode? So many times Thor told him and now Loki didn’t listen and look what happened.
And Loki shaking and shivering, babbling out that he’s a fool, he’s a fool, that he’s sorry, he’s sorry, and Thor says it’s all right, he immediately pulls himself together for Loki’s sake, he’s strong enough to send Loki off in the right way in those last moments. You can see how dearly he loves Loki, how this is the little brother that’s been by his side for a thousand years, this is his Loki in this moment, Thor sees him again and this is the Loki he knows. This is Loki Odinson, to Thor’s eyes, for all that Loki didn’t do this for Odin, this is still the brother Thor had lost sight of.
You can see how much Thor loves him here, how Thor wants Loki to stay with him, how much this is his little brother and Thor doesn’t want to lose him to Kurse, too. Not again, not just after their mother, not when he just found Loki again.
I keep thinking of just how long they’ve known each other, how the past two years are such a tiny, tiny fraction of their lives. They’ve known each other for a thousand years. I keep thinking of Selvig’s relationship with Jane, that he’s probably known her for, what? Maybe 30 years, being generous? And look how protective he is over her, how much he cares about her and looks out for her. Imagine that only more than thirty times that, knowing someone and loving them and having them in your life for that amount of time.
As much as Thor cares about other people, his new friends on Midgard, how much he cares about Jane, that can never be the same as someone he’s loved for a literal thousand years. There’s so much history between them in this moment, so very much time, and yet it’s still only a tiny part of what their life spans should be. Sometimes it seems like forever, that when you’ve known someone for 20 years, since you were both babies, but you’re supposed to know them for another 80 years, you’re supposed to have that time, because you know that you want every day with them in your life.
They were supposed to get 4,000 more years together, even if they had troubles, they would have figured it out. Even now, they were working their shit out, Loki was coming around just a tiny bit, Thor had seen the brother he knew again, he sees him RIGHT HERE, this is the brother he knows, Loki is STILL IN THERE, but he’s dying and it wasn’t supposed to be now at all.
But Thor still holds strong for Loki, tries to comfort him in his last moments, he’ll tell father what Loki did here and how brave and noble he was, because it’s not just about their father’s approval, but about family, that Loki will be reconciled with all of them, that Loki will be part of them again. That is why that line breaks my heart, because Thor is saying that Loki will be family again. Because he’s trying to send Loki off as best he can, to give Loki the best death he can.
And Loki’s line, rejection of their father, but also opening up to how he did it for other reasons, so it doesn’t take away from that this is still the brother Loki knew, even if he’s changed somewhat. I hold with the idea that Loki did it for Frigga—just as Thor offered it to him, vengeance for her—but I think there’s a lot of how it was indeed for Thor.
What would Thor tell Odin? Loki died fighting Kurse. Why did Loki fight Kurse?
His reasons are for Frigga and Thor both, because Loki does still love them and he is laid honest and open here, this was filmed as being entirely genuine, this was meant to be Loki’s redemption, even if later events change his fate, I still view it in that vein. Loki thought he was dying, I don’t buy the theories that he planned this or faked his death, so his words here are the ones that he truly would say to Thor as his last.
And he’s sorry.
Now, excuse me, I have to go lay down in a puddle of my own tears.
I’ve had a couple of requests for FEMALE LOKI RECS and this will be sort of a mix between genderfluid!Loki and always-a-woman!Loki and shapeshifting!Loki, since I love all the aspects that fandom plays with when it comes to Loki’s gender and sex. It’s not perfect in fandom, I definitely wish there were more exploration of these things, but I still can’t think of another fandom off the top of my head that does nearly as many different things with a character’s gender and sex!
And, yeah, it may have some roots in some pretty terrible things (I think most people agree that 616!Lady Loki in Sif’s body was super gross and we’re all here for Lady Loki as being her own body and not into violation of Sif) but fandom actually does do some fantastic things with the character! And also so much porn with female parts, like, you don’t know how much pussy worship fic I’ve read in this fandom that I NEVER GET in others! While fandom isn’t perfect on this aspect either it’s definitely done a lot to bolster even my affection for female parts and how great they are. In other words, LET ME TELL YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE F!LOKI AND GENDERQUEER LOKI, OKAY.
THOR/LOKI - FEM!LOKI RECS:
→ False Love and Affection by gunboots, thor/loki, NSFW, fem!loki, arranged marriage, 4.8kLoki’s no stranger to the tales of the many wenches and shield-maidens that have seen Thor’s chambers before her. She has vowed to herself already that she will not become some new dishrag for him to rut into before tossing away. Or alternatively, If Thor thinks that Loki will simply play the part of pretty, demure queen then he’s got another thing coming.
→ The King Maker by gothicdragon752, thor/loki + other asgardians, fem!loki, NSFW, mortal au, spy au, implied non-con, 42.8kThor Odinson is an agent for A5G - a privatised crime-busting organisation - who meets his match and more in the enigmatic criminal, Loki, when on the trail of Thanos.
→ Ásynja by bakurae, thor/loki + other asgardians, fem!loki, arranged marriage, 24.4k wipOdin is not the Alföðr without due reason; he is indeed an entirely paternal figure. And so he rather wishes he could give the babe a life – how odd, that though his furs are matted stiff with Jötunn blood, that he should feel pity and long to raise one of their abandoned babes.
→ 1,000 by Misaya, thor/loki + other asgardians, NSFW, jotunn!loki, intersex!loki, some fem!loki, crossdressing, 5.3kFor Loki and Thor’s millennial anniversary, the Jotunheimr royal court comes to visit. Laufey is unperturbed by Loki’s choice of gender, Odin is willing to give the frost giants the benefit of the doubt, and Loki wears a corset. Because Darcy said it would be good. And Darcy was right, as it turns out.
→ Customer Loyalty by asktheravens, thor/loki, fem!loki, human au, adorableness, 1.5kThor is the kind of guy who knows the entire Emergency Room staff by name, but Nurse Loki is his favorite.
→ Season of Scars by asktheravens, thor/loki + tony stark, fem!loki, human au, 5.7kTony came down to help his friend finish his Master’s, but it turns out Thor has a different sort of plan for his winter break. What he needs is a miracle, and Tony is fresh out.
→ Jewel of Jötunheim by asaloki, thor/loki, NSFW, jotunn!loki, fem!loki, 2kAlready, his mind is spinning with how to court her, this exotic Jötun woman, that he might make her his. As it happens, he needn’t have bothered to consider: as soon as the doors are closed behind them, Loki’s hands are on his chest, blue splayed like a splash of paint against his sun-bronzed skin.The early morning light bathed the room in warm gold as Loki sat down on the edge of the bed to remove his fur slippers, ready to join his sleeping brother under the covers.
→ Yggdrasil, In Spring by Cthonical, thor/loki, NSFW, some fem!loki, 2.2kThere’s more than one reason why Loki likes to make Thor jealous.
→ A Light in the Heart by AraSigyrn, thor/loki, fem!loki, genderswap/sexswap, 1.1k“Beauty is not in the face; beauty is a light in the heart” - Kahlil Gibran
→ And the strays are pining for their unrequited mothers by Sarek (Sarahzile), thor/loki, NSFW, fem!loki, fem!thor, 4.5kThor receives a visit from her wayward not-sister. Things seem to be going well for the future CEO of Asgard Industries, but it never quite goes that way, does it?
→ Ritual by KillTheDirector, thor/loki, NSFW, fem!loki, 1.8kLoki was banished to the outer reaches of Asgard, close enough to remain under Heimdall’s watch, but far enough to be unable to cause chaos.
THOR & LOKI - FEM!LOKI RECS:
→ A Bright and Bitter Flame by forthegreatergood, loki + avengers, fem!loki, amensia!loki, divergent timeline, aztec mythology, 216kPost-Thor, canon-divergence. Loki doesn’t survive his fall from the Bifrost and winds up reincarnated on Midgard as a mortal magician named Lucy with no memory of her previous life. Her decision-making skills have not been much improved by the transformation.
full details + recs under the cut!